The Last Blog

Sad day. This is the last post that Ramblings of a Teenager will ever see but I'm going to keep it short and sweet. I was given the poem below by a good friend of mine a few weeks ago and I've been saving it until this point - unbeknown to them of course. It means something different to me than it does to the person that wrote it but that's what makes it so special.

 As you walk along the path I left you
complacency fills my heart with passion.
It is clear now that we must not linger,
and leave us with our bitter regrets.

Sympathy has never become you
and yet our love continues to blossom.
I can't decide if we are fooling us
or if we shall ever forget ourselves.

I really can't decide what the future holds;
I know whatever happens you are mine.
But when I look at you I don't see me;
life is too short to be risking our time.

So as I sit under my tree of doubt
and as I explore the road less travelled,
I gaze upon the last glimpse of summer night,
and realise my love won't ever die.

And with that I would like to sign-off for good. I would like to extend a huge thank you to everyone that has ever read any of my posts and an even bigger thank you to people that have kept coming back for more. It means so much to me (and always has) that people take an interest in what I write - some of it being utter rubbish at times as well. My readers are the best that I could have asked for and I hope to see you all over on Ramblings of a Twenty-Something this time next week.

Much love. Over and over and over and out.

Martin

The End is Nigh

I'm not going to cry. I promised myself I wouldn't cry. Well just as well I'm not otherwise this could get awkward. This day was always coming no matter how much I hoped it wouldn't. I'm turning 20 next week thus meaning that I will no longer fit into this blog. If I was to try it would be like me trying to get into a pair of girls jeans which is never going to be a pretty sight so I'm moving on. Next Tuesday I'm going to launch Ramblings of a Twenty-Something which I hope will be the bigger (and better) big brother to this blog. 

All is explained below in a short video that I've done to say thanks for your readership over the last couple of years. Ramblings of a Teenager has been a huge part of my life since I started it and it's become 'my thing' which I'm very proud of. When I think back to all of the things that this blog has seen I wonder if I could class it as being some kind of time capsule, capturing the important (and sometimes unimportant) parts of my life. What's more is that this blog has covered a period in my life that I'm likely never to witness the like of again and in many ways it maps out my change from kid to adult. Not many people have something like this to look back on and for that I feel very fortunate. I'm going to post one last time on Wednesday in ROAT which will be special for different reasons. I'll save my final teenage thanks until then but for now here is a video about what's in store for Ramblings of a Twenty-Something:

 

Under My Skin

I used to write in this blog that I liked being solitary and to a certain extent I still do. I don't have to worry about anyone else and I know that my family and good friends aren't going anywhere - I'm lucky in that respect. The last month gone by, however, has lead to me taking all of that for granted for something that I stand to gain nothing out of; something that is making me lose it a little. I sit behind this screen tonight tired and bedraggled after a long, tiring week and I can't lie by saying that I thought on Monday that things were going to be different when I got here - I knew they wouldn't be. I'm frustrated and getting pretty tired of myself over this thing. We all know what I'm talking about as well so I'm just going to dive into this post and hope that the girl in question doesn't like blogs.

Back on the Horse

I must say straight away that the only reason that I'm writing this post tonight is because I was just watching Big Bang Theory - that is all. Well, OK I'll explain a bit further in depth in a second but I wasn't planning on writing tonight (shock horror!) because I'm pretty tired and I cut my hand on a broken glass this evening - can't say I'm enjoying this typing malarkey at the moment to be fair. I'll crack on with this smashing post though (might as well embrace this evening's clumsiness) and get back to what I was saying above. Raj said to Leonard that he needs to get 'back on the whores'. He was swiftly corrected by a bemused Howard whilst I chuckled myself into a post dinner stitch and decided that I might as well write about my first day back at big school.

Back Home

I've been pining after this day for a very long time now. I could spurt out some useless clichés such as 'you don't know what you've got until it has gone' but I'm starting to understand just what that means. Now, from those couple of sentences, with it being Christmas Eve and the fact that I'm writing this from home and not from Edinburgh, you would think that I'm happy to be home and that Christmas has finally wriggled its way into my psyche - you would only be half right I'm afraid. Yes it's grand to be home and to feel a modicum of Christmas cheer but the greatest thing that I can say I'm delighted about it that I can blog again, free from the guilt of procrastination and the stress of exams. I can't begin to tell you just how many ideas I've had for posts over the last few weeks whilst the exam period kept me hostage - solitary confinement tends to get the mind working. I'm so happy to be home and to be spending Christmas with my family but to add gravy to the turkey, I'm blogging again and that makes me feel just as at home.

Building Myself Up for a Fall

Firstly it would be more than rude to not apologise to the few people that look forward to reading my posts every week on the days that I usually publish. I might have kind of, sort of forgotten to tell everyone that I was going away for a week of peace and tranquility and selfish old me only realised that it had slipped my mind when I got to the place with a lack of internet connection - it seems that the internet hasn't touched every house in the world (and the moon which is actually really nice this time of year). Anyway I'm back now and wanting more than ever to sit down and blog; the thing is that I want more! I've been dabbling with a few ideas as of late which regard starting a new blog with a more focused topic (which itself, like the possibility of starting this new blog, has yet to be decided). I would of course keep writing on Ramblings of a Teenager until my membership to that age-group expires in little over 7 months time but I would love to know that I would have another established blog by that time. The idea of writing two polar opposite blogs excites me but I'm afraid that, as the title of this post suggests, I'm building myself up for a big fall.